Sp3nt~

I have spent too many years,
Staring into the mirror on the wall,
Which only magnifies the imperfections,
Back to my smiling face...
I've spent too many days,
Trying to be the pillar of optimism,
That keeps up the facade,
Even when everything's not okay...
I have spent too many nights,
Covering up my tears and pain,
With an insecurity blanket made,
Of laughter and lies...
I have spent too many hours,
Watching those carefree girls who,
Reflect the perfection of female beauty,
Which I will never have...
I have spent too much time,
Stepping up onto a scale,
Only to measure my inability,
To succeed at the smallest goals...
I have spent almost 14 years,
Living in this world,
And just now I'm beggining to wonder,
If I have ever really lived at all...